Cofers text expresses a sense of isolation while growing up in the El building. In order to assimilate to America, her father was fixated on getting the family out of the barrio (70). Since majority of the tenants were Latina, Cofer Was never permitted to form bonds with the people who lived there (70). The barrio, where Cofer lived, became a place of quarantine. Due to the guilt of isolating the family, Cofers father celebrated Christmas with a real tree, and buying a television. The television shows acted as an example of how American culture should be and how they should act. Cofers photo suggests this same issue of isolation. In the photo she is inside and looks disconnected and uninterested in the toy she is holding, and possibly longing for attention from the photographer. In the story Silent Dancing there are several references to unsettling situations Cofer faces.
Cofer relays a dream she has from this New Years Eve memory and the short film. Her dreams reflect the silent dancers by gliding forward and back to her face, as they were with the camera in the home video. She questions them for answers that no one could or would give her an explanation to in the past. Ortiz remembers she saw her mother Hold a baby doll up and say It was this big when she flushed it down the toilet' (74). According to Cofer, this is an image that haunted her for a very long time. One misconstrued old woman from her dreams sheds some light on her questions. Claiming she is her aunt, she learned of her cousin being pregnant, and then notions of her than killing the child were true. The runaround was that her cousin was Julia 3
corrupted by the American culture, and ended up getting sent to live in Puerto Rico. In the end, Cofers cousin embodied what she was striving to achieve: a La Gringa (74). The downside was that the connotation she was marked with was not the one she had hoped for. The photograph expresses a sense of fear of Americanizing herself and becoming the La Gringa her aunt spoke so poorly about. The photo also displays the demoralization Cofer experiences as a child. Cofers eyes looked haunted with disorientation and sadness. Confused on what to make of all the adult conversations hears, Cofer experiences an anxiety of puzzling memories from her past and is forced to use her imagination to fill in the blanks. In consonance with Cofers confusion, in her poem Lessons from the Past, Cofer states, Things changed, and some nights he didnt come home.
I remember her crying in the kitchen. I sat on my chair learning how to count uno, dos, tres. With one parent wanting to assimilate and the other wanting to remain the same, Cofer felt unsure of which way to lean. Cofers mother tried hard to maintain her island heritage; she always viewed herself as being in temporary isolation. She held fast to the traditions and family values she knew well. Cofers father, on the other hand, thought that in order for his children to have the best educational and career opportunities, he had to fight hard to disassociate himself from his beloved island. This disconnect is expressed through the dull, sad, empty look on her face. These two opposing worldviews created a disconnect that Cofer attempts to resolve through her writing.
On top of her confusion and difficulties in assimilation Ortiz encounters many differences between Puerto Rico life and the barrios. She was used to the single family living, and was forced to keep quiet and watch television. The television helped to Americanize the family. Having a television set them apart from the rest of the community; other women envied their economic status and considered them rich. The photograph displays Cofers wealth as she sits in a beautiful Sunday dress. The level of wealth coupled with her ethnic background made it difficult to fit in and assimilate to their new life in Jersey. Cofers story weaves a recollection of memories while the photograph reflects the hardship and shows her emotions. The dreams act as a manifestation of fears and unanswered questions. The dreams may answer some of the questions Cofer has had, yet she is dissatisfied. The distorted people in her dream echo the old womans last words- La Gringa. She relates the people in her life to the silent dancers, circling in their dance and always keeping silent while her dreams tell her the answers. The photograph exudes confusion, isolation, and difficulties in assimilation. All which come at a time when Cofer is too young to piece together the big picture.